Dark Poetry Prose Poetry January 26, 2004 Dark Poetic Prose

01-26-04 monday 8:38pm brick NJ

promise your suns to someone else and then give me your moons. move my tide. agitate my waves. crash the sand and steal all the footprints away.

take the photographs with your mind. and wait while your heart develops the negatives. it will last forever just as we promised. that doesn't mean we won't wish that it didn't.

white nights reveal so much. allow you to hide nothing. winter tends to accentuate all weaknesses. just so that it can eliminate them. and life it seems has been winter forever. stark and white. cold and angry. no conscience. just eliminating. weeding out every tender moment for the killing.

alone as i was. as i've never been apart from. chance encounters blanket the obvious, but it's still there even when we can't see it. alone as all individuals are. or so i would presume. since nothing is constant. since no heart is unwaiveringly true. funny how i learned that from you.

i can't lie and say that i want it to be over. can't be cruel and tell you i'm too depressed to bother. so i say nothing. i just talk to my screen. i say nothing. since nothing has always been the only one who held onto me.

promise yourself that. because that is the place to begin. wherever you go there you are. it's him that you have to convince. no one else matters. they really don't. when it comes right down to it. even love is a selfish pursuit. even children are. everything is. everyone that we care about we do to fulfill ourselves. i wanted to be more than that. i don't know if i can. or that anyone can. they say suicide is a selfish act. but oftentimes i think that to live is much moreso.

so watch the night carefully as she dances in the sky. she'll seduce you. don't let her touch you. because once you do she'll always be inside.