Dark Poetry Prose Poetry April 29, 2005 Dark Poetic Prose

04-29-05 friday 9:30pm

if life's a book. i'm the epilogue. after everything is over, a few extra words to keep you lingering between the front and back covers.

left to myself i will find a way to make it worse. never better.

i've always wanted to be a super hero. save them all, except myself. but i've never had any super powers. so i tried to save them anyway, but always only ended up getting everyone hurt.

04-29-05 friday 10:30pm

dulcet metaphors mask what can only be my downfall.

words conspire to influence me. but with all those that i spew forth, still i keep on heaving. coughing up and spitting out. endless regurgitation of the life that's soured.

of all the ways there are to ache. alone seems the least of which. not knowing what to want is easy compared to wanting that which you can never have.

but such is my vice.

i look at the sunset and see the dying in. i witness sunrise and wish that it could rest.

it all seems so wrong. living just to die.

it's all so useless. time fading in and out like a scratchy record.

pull the needle out and let me bleed again.

time has nothing to offer. and life even less. the future merely scabs on the past. and everything there is to love in the world has very little reason to love you back.

04-29-05 10:45pm

i'm not under you. nor over. just lost somewhere between.

the world lights me up and smokes me like a cigarette. i don't want to burn, but i don't know what else there is to be.

there are those who are gone. and those that remain.

as the ashes fall from my ends.

there's the fire in my chest. and the filter on the other end.

and all that poison inside me looking for someone to infect.

you don't know me. but you should.

and i don't know you, but i'm willing to.

everything's burning away. i'm disappearing. breath by breath. the smoke lingers on, but the ashes are dead.

you think that you know, but i know you can't.

you think that you've been there. but i can't find your footprints.

i could've loved you way back when. but now is something so different.