Dark Poetry Prose Poetry May 17, 2003 Dark Poetic Prose

5-17-03 saturday 10:21pm brick NJ

when everything else is gone, i will remember. when communications ceases. when you've no longer any use for me, it won't be forgotten. it doesn't matter how used. how fooled.well, it matters, but not enough to.

have you ever looked at death and seen as much beauty in it as i have? have you ever thought that life would've been so much better having never been. that it was all just moments bloated with wasted time. that purpose never entered into it. just an accident. a misstep by life.

i didn't want you to love me. i never thought that you could. i only wanted a friend. a friend more than sex. hell, anyone could have that kinda friend. i never wanted you to love me. i know better than. i just wanted to be there for you. and sometimes for you to be there for me. i never asked you to be more than i knew that you could. but when you said we were friends i believed you. you didn't break my heart when you didn't fall in love with me. i never believed you would. but friendship. that is different. i really thought you could. i believed you. i really believed you wanted to.