Dark Poetry Prose Poetry May 19, 2003 Dark Poetic Prose

5-19-03 monday 10pm brick NJ

one step from the edge. always. tying your thoughts in bows to wrap your secrets pretty. ribbon candy sentiments and saltwater taffy friends. so sweet and stretchy. and full of empty calories. living on the margin of high tide. always wondering how long until the next sand castle is wrecked.

down here the air is different. the days never seem to change until summer comes. and then suddenly alone wears a different face. time speeds up and you fall behind her pace. life gets tired of waiting and decides to move without you.

you used to say just wait. relax with me for a while. lets sip the moments slowly and enjoy them like a good stiff drink. you used to say so many things. like hello, how are you, you're looking good, i'll see you soon. you used to say i meant to. i will. you used to say until i stopped believing you.

jersey shore hearts might be different from the rest. a little less open. a little more given to mistakes when those quiet nights invite chance to gamble on them. down the turnpike and across the beach. stop at a diner to awaken your life with some late night pancakes and coffee. jersey shore hearts grow up on the edge of waves. crashing into the sand more often than they'll admit. but your heart is still in brooklyn, sipping beers and smoking pot while your driving. your heart's still sailing south toward this summer haven while mine is pedalling further and further west to get away from it.

i won't see you when. i won't see you ever again. it's a definite loss in my heart. a large gap in my life, but it never really gave me a choice. it was never mine to decide.