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05-20-05 friday 9:34pm i don't feel anything
lately. other than the threat of my own existence. as it throbs within. i don't
feel anything that i need to. or could. nothing, but the sound of a limping heart
as it scrapes its way across the pavement. that's the great thing about
words. you can say anything you want to without really saying anything. on
that i rely when everything else fails me. it's a pseudonym, life is. when
you try it on and pretend it fits. myself is just another name i call and am called
by. but that doesn't mean it's who i am. the more you tailor it, the worse
it is. i don't want to wear it anymore. don't want any part of it touching
my skin. i don't feel anything. nothing of the heart is not gone. nothing.
calm and sharp.
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