Dark Poetry Prose Poetry August 4, 2003 #4 Dark Poetic Prose

8-04-03 monday 10:23pm brick NJ

you had all of me, but you chose to forfeit. there was no one i could've ever wanted more, but i wasn't worth it.

i waited. had to. and it's true that time will cure. no matter how much. no matter who. but something always lingers. memory conspires to break my heart again when i'm least suspecting.

i know you've lived much longer. and i'm much too young. i never saw forever. i just saw what i needed and wanted your love.

it took many seasons, but eventually they took the desire and turned it into something kinder. i'll always love you. and could fall back in at any given moment, but for now it's just a friend. a person i wanted more than i could have.

much as it broke my heart, it fractured my ego more. that you could resist. that you could leave me wanting and not answer it.

that's why i never held it against you. knowing if it just was, that you would've taken every chance. and i wish i could know why you chose not to. why instead of happy, we still had to be us.