monday 9-20-04 10:57pm
maybe after all these things are over we'll know why then we didn't
want them to end. these lives rush forward and barely give us a chance
to notice what we have.
thinking's not enough. and actions often fall short. there's so much
we need that we just can't go out and buy.
you wake up because you have to. and you go to sleep because you're
tired. and everything we do inbetween is how we decide whether we'll
do it again another time.
all i feel is this chasm. no pain. no fear. not any kind of connection
to the world outside. my head is a coffin. my life is the corpse inside.