8:11pm 10-23-04 saturday
random thoughts. filter in like wounds through gauze. staining slow
and dark. hardening what once was soft.
i remember everything i've ever said that was wrong. how those feelings
bled through their dressings. and whom every drop landed on.
it's much better to hurt them only a little bit than to be devasted
if you let yourself trust them.
random hearts. burning like candles in the dark. casting strong shadows
that mock every thought.
let them burn a while. melt those hard edges away. let them burn a
while. see how they change.
10-23-04 saturday 9:45pm
give what was just one last thought.
a final platform before the stage goes dark.
then return. return with all your heart.
to what is. all that you love.
and i will love you more because.
the truth is cold,
but its center warm and soft.
we're long apart,
but you are not gone.
are not lost.
very much there,
as sun to dawn.
so very much there,
in that sense of far off.
so many thoughts,
that are so real in my heart,
but in this world they are not.