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11-04-03 tuesday 8:40am brick NJ
time moves in circles
spinning me;
hearts bend at various angles
before ever breaking.
is life not just a series of devastation
we must overcome?
or is it just mine?
sparse twinkles of happiness teasing
like misting rain
when the soil needs it most.
11:00pm
conversation cycles.
360 degrees of trying,
constantly trying
to do the right thing.
i always wanted to die
before we met,
then without explanation
i suddenly wanted to live -
for a little while at least.
now i seldom think about either,
i just wonder why it must be how it is;
now i seldom thin about life or death
since i'm so preoccupied with this.
though i know it's true that
love is not enough,
there's that part of me that
can't admit;
though i realize all loves
have their limits,
i can accept, but
i can't stop wishing that it wasn't.
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