Dark Poetry Prose Poetry November 13, 2004 Dark Poetic Prose

4:37pm 11-13-04 saturday

i'm dazed. out of my own control. a car without a steering wheel. and a tank full of dirty fuel.

i am me. talking to myself while i'm listening to them. i am everyone i've ever lost piling up like bodies in my head.

feel your tomorrow like gelatin. yourself suspended within.

something changed a long time ago. just didn't realize until now.

some shipwreck that sunk to the bottom of your thoughts. decaying down there in that dark ocean. slowly. over time seeping in.

11-13-04 saturday 10:42pm

words not oblidging. memories melting like ice cream left out too long.

where in your heart was all that love for me hiding all that while you'd been gone?

trust not abiding. my life fenced in barbed wire.

i won't be snuck inside again. won't be left. won't be entered.

won't gain another nor lose anymore friends.

take off your armor. put on your skin. i've always been human. but the pain makes it so apparent.

i've always been human. or near to it. but you took that. what could've been a strength and made it into a weakness.

words not what they used to be. i'm a pen running out of ink.

i waited. like i always do. for the people i have loved to return after i've set them free. i waited. i did wait for you.

but the person that came back to me was not the person i thought i knew.

11:01pm 11-13-04 saturday

i'm not sure anything that happened between us really did. how can it have happened and now there be nothing.

how can i have flown then. looked down at the clouds. and be in gravity's prison now.

how can i sit here and not feel i've been forgotten. when i've always been. so much of my life. by so many of my friends.

how can you offer me only a few sentences after all those months of silence.

how can you have ever cared at all about me if you'd let it end like this.