Wednesday 3-15-06 9:31 PM
three days ago i was so much older. now i'm a child again. toy soldier. flaky
edges still left over from the mold.
no pupils. just empty eyes to see with. or try to when the light is low and
my plastic machine gun is all out of pretend ammunition.
poured ears listen to the cellophane silence. as it crinkles and hisses against
the pull of my make-believe breath. it's real to me. it all is. because this
is as real as i can be.
wait for the hand. the shadow of god's descent. wait for the movement as my
feet grow out of their plastic stand. pick me up. knock me down. as long as
something changes.
hands sewn to my sides. made of my uniform. noting under those clothes. solid,
yet hollow as anything's ever been. pale regurgitation of my original mold.
the wax is beginning to boil again.
it's nearly time to pour another soldier.
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